Soon.... Sweetheart.... We'll be with you soon.

Adopting from Ukraine is described as a walk of faith. A walk whereupon if you do not live in faith when you begin, you certainly will by the time you finish.

Luckily, I have lived in the shadow of God my entire life. I find that small space close to him to be the safest place I can be. Many of my friends, even those I've known for years or decades, do not know how deep my faith is.

I do not claim to be Christian or Saved, Hindu, Buddhist, Wicca, New Age, Evangelical or a member of any group for my faith does not reside in a church or a religion or a dogma or a creed or a ritual or a prayer. My faith resides in the small spark of light within me that I know connects me to the creator of all that is, all that has been and all that will ever be.

I don't fight the darkness or believe in attacks of evil. I simply enedeavour to remember to shine Gods light where darkness lies. My light often dims and my batteries run low. Often I just plain forget that I have access to a light that never fails and thus I fail to access this light.

I believe in the way of the Christ without having to believe or disbelieve in the literal veracity of any one version of historical events.

Many people fear for me, sure that I have not said the right words or given absolute loyalty to the right pledge and thus my soul lives in jeopardy. I do not worry about my soul. It has existed for all of time. I was, I am and always will be. Many people really fear for me when I speak of my belief in reincarnation or my surety that we aren't the only intelligent life form in the universe.

Whether the other life forms live here or somewhere else in this marvelous holographic universe that stretches infinitely as far as the eye can see, whether these life forms are dolphins (surely they qualify as intelligent life forms) or giant reptilian humanoids or small gray gumby like creatures or tall blonde-haired nordic warriors from far away skies, they too come from God and so their existence or lack thereof doesn't affect my spiritual views.

What does affect my spiritual views is the magnificence of the love, support and comraderie I have found these last few months as I have Searched for my Son. The synchronicities that have allowed my husband and me to complete our Dossier and submit it on the very day the Ukraine government decided to once again accept US Citizen submissions. The unintended networking which resulted in us finding a Ukraine facilitator we have total faith in, a Georgia HomeStudy Social Worker who is commited to submitting comprehensive homestudies in the shortest amount of time, an expert in the preparation of the Ukraine-required "Dossier", a complicated and daunting document, apostilles and all, in one weeks time*.

What do these three people have to do with my faith? I believe that my thoughts attract and when I shine the light of all that is my thoughts attract that which is positive and good and true and kind. If I had to manage the details of this adoptiion or my life I'd be mired in details and going in circles.

But there in the shadow of God, close enough that he stands between me and all else, I have only one task, to show up each day in a state of gratitude and do whatever seems to be the next right thing. All the details are handled by he who is all and lives in everything.

So today my gratitude stretches far and wide. I am grateful that the Parliment of Ukraine decided to continue to process adoptions until the new Ministry takes over in May. Yesterday our visit to Ukraine to adopt Alex was in doubt. Today it is not. I am grateful. Tonight in the hypnogogic state just prior to sleep I shall give thanks for the blessings of this day and ask that I be given yet another day in which to attempt to walk the path of faith and love.

I love you Alex. We will be in Ukraine very, very soon to bring you home. Do not worry my son, for your father and I hold you in our hearts and there is nothing, nothing we will not do to bring you home to us. Sleep tight, we'll be with you soon.

* Oleg Maryenko at ukradopt@yahoo.com, Kelly Barth at KB_elina@bellsouth.net, Tonya Boggs at tmb_aps@yahoo.com

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